So this week begins the days that I set up the classroom, preparing for the bulletin boards, setting up the desks, arranging my little area, making the room sunny and happy! Just now, a pit rolled over in my stomach! That happens every fall. I get super excited about the kids and super sick at the same time.
This year, I am disappointed. Not about my class! I am excited for the grade levels I will be working with this year...even if that does mean SIX FCAT tested areas! YIPES! No, I am disappointed because the skinny me did not reveal herself. She remained hidden. I guess she has had enough school and wanted to stay out of it for awhile. Chicken. She should have shown herself. Been brave and faced the excited little faces with me. Oh, well, her loss.
Skinny me, when I do find you, I am going to make sure you stick around for a long long time...and you will go to school with me every day! HA!
My search is not over. I will find her. I just have to use different tools and tactics, pull her out of hiding. I will find you, Skinny me, make no mistake about that. I will find you...one day.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
summer is almost over! : {.
Wow! I can't believe that summer is almost over! Wahhh!
Am I crying because I can't stay up all night and then sleep in the next day? Probably. Am I crying because I won't be able to go to the bathroom whenever I want? Yep, I think so. But the main reason I am crying that summer is over is that I still have not found the skinny me??? I have tried, searched, worked out, ate correctly, gagged down supplements, and DID NOT WEIGH!
I can't believe that it has been almost two months and I have very little to show for it! sigh
Skinny me, where are you? Did you move to France without me??
Am I crying because I can't stay up all night and then sleep in the next day? Probably. Am I crying because I won't be able to go to the bathroom whenever I want? Yep, I think so. But the main reason I am crying that summer is over is that I still have not found the skinny me??? I have tried, searched, worked out, ate correctly, gagged down supplements, and DID NOT WEIGH!
I can't believe that it has been almost two months and I have very little to show for it! sigh
Skinny me, where are you? Did you move to France without me??
Monday, July 12, 2010
can't believe I forgot to weigh!!!
It's Monday!! I usually don't enjoy Monday mornings very much...means the end of a relaxing or fun filled weekend, but today, I LOVE MONDAY...and, even more so...I LOVE MONDAY MORNING!!! Yeah!! I never thought I would say that!! I love Monday morning???
It's true, I do! Today I woke up and realized that I totally forgot to weigh myself on Friday...my weigh day. Totally forgot!! Not just an "ugh, I don't really want to weigh myself today because I know I did not lose any weight" or a "do I really have to do this and feel horrible about myself the rest of the week?" NO! I totally and completely forgot! Woke up Friday morning wanting to play Just Dance! Threw my sweats on, moved the sofa back as far as the way...again...made a healthy breakfast of homemade granola and almond milk, picked up Joshy and then danced the morning away! I think I even beat Olivia! ONCE! But, hey, I beat her!!!
[ here is the link for granola recipe...I use agave syrup instead of honey...same consistency and well, I can't have honey! YUM!!
http://renegadehealth.com/blog/2008/05/28/the-best-raw-granola-on-planet-earth-and-possibly-elsewhere-the-renegade-health-show-episode-62/ ]
Truth is, I am afraid to weigh. I do not want to see that no results have been made in my weight loss quest. I do not want to feel badly about my body, especially since I am getting older and unable to stop that. I do not want to feel as if all the effort I have been making is not showing any results on the scale. All of that is true. But, I don't think about that until way late in the day when it is just too late to weigh. I know, I should be able to weigh at any time, whenever I remember...just keep it consistent and limited to once a week, right? No way....I way in the morning only! Before I eat, after potty and before I do anything else. And, since I am trying to be good at this...I only weigh on Fridays. So why have I not weighed for 2 weeks??? I totally forgot because I had something more fun on my mind...Joshy and dancing!!
[ site on when to weigh for best weight loss results...
http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=55489 ]
That's the key to me to not be soooo obsessed with this weight loss... keeping busy and keeping focused on something else. THAT IS HUGE for me!! To focus on something besides my weight?? I have not done that for at least 30 years!! I am doing it now!
I know I have not lost any weight...my pants are still tight when I put them on straight out of the dryer. My shirts still cling just a little too tight for my comfort. I still can't wear all the cute clothes I bought 2 summers ago that are amazing still in style! That's how I know I have not lost one pound! I know that. I guess the difference is that now I have accepted it.
I am doing everything "right" according to all the experts on how to lose weight:
1. diet....no sugar, no honey, no soy, no dairy, no fun....got it! Doing great with that!
2. exercise...3 times a week at the Y, training with Justin once a week, dancing like crazy on Just Dance or Dance Dance Revolution. Loving that!
3. sleep...ah...wonderful sleep....I LOVE this part of the regiment! Yeah, summer!! I love you!!
4. levels check...once a week with Dr. Walsh, seeing progress each week! Yeah!
5. reading scripture...also reading Love to Eat, Hate to Eat by Elyse Fitzpatrick.
[ http://www.harvesthousepublishers.com/books_nonfictionbook.cfm?productID=6914382 ]
No weight loss. No "new & cute" wardrobe. No success story to win $500! So, what DO I have to show for this?? I've been working on this over a month, with a LOT of accountability! I write down everything that enters into the huge portal on my face. Olivia keeps me honest, that's for sure. Dr. Walsh checks levels. Justin trains me. So, what DO I have to show for all of this??
Well, I forgot to weigh on Friday and did not even think about it until this morning, and I could not weigh because it was MONDAY!! Yeah!! THAT'S what I have to show for all of this!!!
Okay, got to go...time to DANCE!!!
[ http://www.nintendo.com/games/detail/lsuOIrpVDZGNKP-14iVQumsPxZ8e_LmR and...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JzcqALklRs ]
It's true, I do! Today I woke up and realized that I totally forgot to weigh myself on Friday...my weigh day. Totally forgot!! Not just an "ugh, I don't really want to weigh myself today because I know I did not lose any weight" or a "do I really have to do this and feel horrible about myself the rest of the week?" NO! I totally and completely forgot! Woke up Friday morning wanting to play Just Dance! Threw my sweats on, moved the sofa back as far as the way...again...made a healthy breakfast of homemade granola and almond milk, picked up Joshy and then danced the morning away! I think I even beat Olivia! ONCE! But, hey, I beat her!!!
[ here is the link for granola recipe...I use agave syrup instead of honey...same consistency and well, I can't have honey! YUM!!
http://renegadehealth.com/blog/2008/05/28/the-best-raw-granola-on-planet-earth-and-possibly-elsewhere-the-renegade-health-show-episode-62/ ]
Truth is, I am afraid to weigh. I do not want to see that no results have been made in my weight loss quest. I do not want to feel badly about my body, especially since I am getting older and unable to stop that. I do not want to feel as if all the effort I have been making is not showing any results on the scale. All of that is true. But, I don't think about that until way late in the day when it is just too late to weigh. I know, I should be able to weigh at any time, whenever I remember...just keep it consistent and limited to once a week, right? No way....I way in the morning only! Before I eat, after potty and before I do anything else. And, since I am trying to be good at this...I only weigh on Fridays. So why have I not weighed for 2 weeks??? I totally forgot because I had something more fun on my mind...Joshy and dancing!!
[ site on when to weigh for best weight loss results...
http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=55489 ]
That's the key to me to not be soooo obsessed with this weight loss... keeping busy and keeping focused on something else. THAT IS HUGE for me!! To focus on something besides my weight?? I have not done that for at least 30 years!! I am doing it now!
I know I have not lost any weight...my pants are still tight when I put them on straight out of the dryer. My shirts still cling just a little too tight for my comfort. I still can't wear all the cute clothes I bought 2 summers ago that are amazing still in style! That's how I know I have not lost one pound! I know that. I guess the difference is that now I have accepted it.
I am doing everything "right" according to all the experts on how to lose weight:
1. diet....no sugar, no honey, no soy, no dairy, no fun....got it! Doing great with that!
2. exercise...3 times a week at the Y, training with Justin once a week, dancing like crazy on Just Dance or Dance Dance Revolution. Loving that!
3. sleep...ah...wonderful sleep....I LOVE this part of the regiment! Yeah, summer!! I love you!!
4. levels check...once a week with Dr. Walsh, seeing progress each week! Yeah!
5. reading scripture...also reading Love to Eat, Hate to Eat by Elyse Fitzpatrick.
[ http://www.harvesthousepublishers.com/books_nonfictionbook.cfm?productID=6914382 ]
No weight loss. No "new & cute" wardrobe. No success story to win $500! So, what DO I have to show for this?? I've been working on this over a month, with a LOT of accountability! I write down everything that enters into the huge portal on my face. Olivia keeps me honest, that's for sure. Dr. Walsh checks levels. Justin trains me. So, what DO I have to show for all of this??
Well, I forgot to weigh on Friday and did not even think about it until this morning, and I could not weigh because it was MONDAY!! Yeah!! THAT'S what I have to show for all of this!!!
Okay, got to go...time to DANCE!!!
[ http://www.nintendo.com/games/detail/lsuOIrpVDZGNKP-14iVQumsPxZ8e_LmR and...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JzcqALklRs ]
Saturday, July 3, 2010
I saw a shadow!!
That's right! Last night at the Y when I was training with Justin, I saw a shadow of the skinny me! SHE WAS THERE! Of course, she was fleeting as shadows are, but I saw her none the less! Do you know what that means?? HOPE!! I am going to find her one day!! Yeah! Now the hunt is on!
I gotta tell ya, I was very surprised to see her! We played Dance Dance Revolution for 4 1/2 hours Thursday/Friday. You would have thought that she would have showed up then, right? I mean, it's a great workout and tons of fun.
I did not even think about her last night. After we went to the doctor, we decided to stop at Thai Thai Village for the absolutely BEST food in the world...yellow mango curry! Yes, I did have a little bit of the rice that was served with it...so I broke my "no grains for a week" attempt. I was actually encouraged to do so by my doctor. When I told him about it, he reminded me that I am a carbo/protein mix based on my metabolic blood type, and if I wanted to find the skinny me, I needed to actually step it up and eat actual carbo/protein meals. He did say that whole wheat breads and even whole wheat pasta is not what I particularly need. He suggested, again, the brown rice, the rice noodles and the rice bread. All of which I have at home. But I did not have yellow mango curry at home, so Thai Thai it was! No sign of the skinny me at dinner. If it were up to me, and someone was serving yellow mango curry, THAT would be the place I would show up!
Not her, it was at the Y! And, it was not even until almost the END of the workout session. Her shadow passed before me when I was doing reverse door kicks on the inclined bench. I was in deep agony, sort of, not really, but if I let Justin know then I would have to do a lot more, and let me tell you, after a yummy yummy dinner like that, I was tired. So, I was doing the right amount of kicks in the right amount of time and I could actually feel the muscles in my stomach responding! How that happened while they were buried deep under a bowl full of yellow mango curry, I just don't know. But for a second, there she was....the skinny me!
And, it's about time, too! I have been in search of her for a while, as you know. And let me tell ya, she is very illusive. Great at hiding, especially after dinner. Usually no where to be seen, not even a glimpse.
Ha ha! I almost got you!! Next time, next time! I am going to find her, you can count on that!
I gotta tell ya, I was very surprised to see her! We played Dance Dance Revolution for 4 1/2 hours Thursday/Friday. You would have thought that she would have showed up then, right? I mean, it's a great workout and tons of fun.
I did not even think about her last night. After we went to the doctor, we decided to stop at Thai Thai Village for the absolutely BEST food in the world...yellow mango curry! Yes, I did have a little bit of the rice that was served with it...so I broke my "no grains for a week" attempt. I was actually encouraged to do so by my doctor. When I told him about it, he reminded me that I am a carbo/protein mix based on my metabolic blood type, and if I wanted to find the skinny me, I needed to actually step it up and eat actual carbo/protein meals. He did say that whole wheat breads and even whole wheat pasta is not what I particularly need. He suggested, again, the brown rice, the rice noodles and the rice bread. All of which I have at home. But I did not have yellow mango curry at home, so Thai Thai it was! No sign of the skinny me at dinner. If it were up to me, and someone was serving yellow mango curry, THAT would be the place I would show up!
Not her, it was at the Y! And, it was not even until almost the END of the workout session. Her shadow passed before me when I was doing reverse door kicks on the inclined bench. I was in deep agony, sort of, not really, but if I let Justin know then I would have to do a lot more, and let me tell you, after a yummy yummy dinner like that, I was tired. So, I was doing the right amount of kicks in the right amount of time and I could actually feel the muscles in my stomach responding! How that happened while they were buried deep under a bowl full of yellow mango curry, I just don't know. But for a second, there she was....the skinny me!
And, it's about time, too! I have been in search of her for a while, as you know. And let me tell ya, she is very illusive. Great at hiding, especially after dinner. Usually no where to be seen, not even a glimpse.
Ha ha! I almost got you!! Next time, next time! I am going to find her, you can count on that!
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